These last few weeks have forced me to push myself to get out of my comfort zone. I hate but its kinda rewarding at the same time. I’ve been shaping into a better person and mother. I am so aware of things better than I was before. I feel like I have a “third eye” ha! Up until my son diagnosis I was always avoiding things for myself and for my family. I’m talking about having a social life.. being a social person. As I mentioned before, I still suffer from severe anxiety. It’s a horrible little monster always trying to control my life but as I’m shaping into a better person I feel like I can control my mind again.
They’re badass freaking women
I have more mom friends now. I feel super geeky saying this but It’s like the coolest thing ever. They’re badass freaking women and I’m so happy that I have a relationship with them. To all of my old friends out there that will randomly stumble upon this post, please do not be offended! You will understand once you are a mother! moving forward with this, I feel like a new chapter of my life is unfolding! I guess its something to look forward to.
Before finally finding my friends, I was honestly really fucking sad. I had nothing going on and I feel so bad for my husband for always putting up with my complaining and the lack of understanding what the fuck I was going through. I can say now my husband understands that our son is more than just a human and I have to say that my husband is a new man. I’m not bashing him, I am so grateful for everything he has done for us. I love my new husband. This is all a new start. I say it with a positive voice too.
Nothing compares to venting with other mothers, especially the ones who are going through what you are going through! I am slowly but surely getting out of the comfort zone and I LOVE IT.